Thanks, this happened last night so I am still shook up about it.
I wish I could move away from here, because he knows where
I work at and maybe he will try to do it again. I joined this site
not to long ago and now look what has happened to me. I
wonder if I never joined this site if maybe I wouldn't have
been victimized. You know what they say" a butterfly
flapping its wings can cause a tsunami"
Hmm....I've never heard that saying before. I'm sure it's a metaphor, but I have no idea what it means. Bottom line, you are not to blame in any physical or metaphysical way for what happened to you.
I totally understand still being shook up. Not knowing the crime rates or other important considerations in your area, you feeling like you want to move may be rational even absent the events of last night. Knowing a bit about crime and criminals though, my gut feeling is that you were a random victim of a predator who saw your place of employment as a target of opportunity. I seriously doubt that you were individually targeted, and do not believe at all that there's some cosmic force punishing you for joining this site, or for even thinking about arming yourself. If there's any cosmic force at play here, it's much more likely that you were moved to join a site like this so that you'd have a place to turn to do exactly what you're doing now; gathering information and preparing yourself so that you won't be defenseless if/when something like last night ever happens again, which I am sure everyone here wishes and/or prays that it won't. If anything, what happened to you last night should validate whatever prescient feelings you had that prompted you to join this site.
Having made the decision to pursue acquiring and training with a handgun, understand that you are making a life-style change decision. We don't know your background with guns, if any, but if you're starting from scratch, understand that it is a long and arduous process to become proficient, confident and capable of defending yourself with a gun. The training should, to the extent you can afford it, include as much psychological and stress-handling skill-building as time on the range or in a classroom. Don't be dissuaded by anyone who says maybe you're not "cut out" for defending yourself. Every living being has a self-preservation instinct. It is there whether it's trained to work for you yet or not. Just persevere, identify it within yourself, nurture it, train it, and before long you'll be as capable as anyone on this site of being able to defend yourself should the need arise again.
Good luck. Keep asking questions. The vast majority of us want only to help you learn and prepare.
Blues
