Finally got to see pain management today, only a mere six months after my surgery. A wonderful testimonial to the stellar efficiency of the Bureau of Worker's Comp. Just can't wait until that kind of government efficiency is running all of our health care! Anyway, after the doctor expressed surprise that it took all this time for me to actually get a pain management appointment, he gave me my first pain medication in months. He didn't hold back either. He went straight to the high caliber ammunition, Oxycontin. It didn't make me pain free. It didn't even kill most of my pain. But just the modest relief I got was such a drastic change from my life during the last six months, it was like going to Disney World and winning the lottery all in one. I actually got to participate in such monumental tasks as...
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1. Walking around the house. Yes, believe it or not, it can actually be an incredible joy to walk around your own house when you haven't been able to do it for months. Oh, I could do it before, but with a decided amount of pain, and only in limited trips because the pain increased with each successive trip. I even managed a couple of tiny dance steps to some music I was listening to. Sandy said, "Yep, you're drugged."
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2. Leaning. Did he say leaning? Yes, I said leaning! I'm 'allowed' to lean up to 40 degrees (I think it's 40), but I can't get that far so it doesn't matter. But even minimal leaning starts to produce pain fairly rapidly. Do you realize how much you lean during daily activity? It's a LOT! Washing my hands hurts. Washing (rinsing) dishes hurts. Loading the dishwasher hurts. Lifting and raising the toilet seat hurts. Feeding the dogs and cat hurts. You get the idea. But today? I CAN LEAN!!!!!! Hallelujah!!
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3. Throwing a tennis ball. Do you realize how many times the average Labrador Retriever needs a ball thrown each day? Do you know how depressed they get if they don't get their quota? They were HAPPY dogs today! We didn't just do tennis balls in the house. We did squeaky footballs in the back yard too. They were in seventh heaven.
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I'm really going to pay for all this in soreness later, but I can't tell you how wonderful it was to have just a hint of normalcy back in my life for a few hours.
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The eventual goal is for me to recover enough to go back to work, but he says I'm not ready to start physical therapy yet. He says my pain level is still too high for that. I go back in three weeks and we see where to go from there, but drugs aren't what I want for a long term option. We're just looking for a way for me to get into and through physical therapy so I can heal enough so I don't need the drugs anymore. There's some other stuff to try still too, but he needs to settle down my current pain first. The nerves in my back are just too 'hot' to work with right now, so we need to get that down to a more manageable level before we start working on the 'fine tuning'. At this point I'm just thanking God that I finally got an appointment with a pain management doctor. The details are just a secondary consideration compared to that at the moment. Once I've had time to adjust to feeling better, I'll start paying more attention to the details. For now I'll just enjoy what I've got for a while.