As you can see from my signature block I have several xd's and xdm's - I carry 40 XD for personal protection every day, shoot a 9 mm XDM 5.25 for competition (production) and XCM 40 (limited division. I have collectively 20,000 rounds through XD products with only an occasional ammo malfunction. If it feels good in your hand and you can shoot it accurately this is your gun, if not, go to a store or gunshow and fondle a few (guns) and see what feels better. In my classes I mention three to possibly start on (my personal preference and that alone), a Glock, M&P and XD, simple to shoot, reliable and affordable to most. I agree with Treo though, if this gun causes extreme psychological problems, send it to me, I'm a gunshrink and would be glad to help. This is my life.....